Grateful

It is early morning Thanksgiving. "Feeling it" has been a struggle this year. I don't know why it's been hard, but it basically makes me feel like a terrible/selfish person.  How can I not be over the moon excited for a pointed opportunity to express everything I have to be grateful for? This year, especially, I have so much to thank God for. Pieces have really come together this last year. I do see I have been blessed and I do recognize all that I have been given; however, that isn't enough. Because it was never about being grateful for things, or circumstances- it is about being grateful regardless. So I want to take a moment to publicly do that.
I'm grateful that no matter what comes at me; I'm not alone. I'm grateful for a Heavenly Father I can pray to. I'm grateful for a Savior, who's grace sustains me. I'm grateful for the warm confirmations and consistent nudging of the Holy Ghost. I am grateful for truth on the Earth. I'm grateful for perspective. I'm grateful for opportunities to make choices in faith.  I'm grateful for my family. For parents, siblings, in-laws, my kids and especially my husband. I'm grateful that we can be together forever through God's plan of happiness for his children. I'm grateful we love eachother- sometimes in a light hearted, butterflies-in-the-stomach way; and sometimes in a serious I'll stand-by-you-in-the-darkest-moments way. I'm grateful for new beginnings, for the atonement of Jesus Christ.  I'm grateful for honesty. I'm grateful for good examples in my life. I'm grateful for friendships that have transformed and molded me.  I'm grateful for moments I get to breathe in, take in the perfectness of a moment, and feel the miracle of life, and that these moments don't die but turn into memories that breathe life back into me as time moves forward.
I am so grateful for so much....but really I am grateful that no matter what I have or don't have...I always can have peace- through Jesus Christ.  If I lost everything today, I'm grateful that I could still feel peace and that could still have the potential to feel gratitude.
(Later...)
Thanksgiving was a good day. We woke up and exercised, John and I are joining dome friends doing a mile a day until the new year. I know,  a mile a day isn't much...but I think the challenge here is consistency through the holidays. Also, there's stickers involved soooo, motivation should stay high. :)
We had german pancakes as a family and the thanksgiving day parade played on the TV all morning. (Well. Until the kids told me it was lame, so I switched to Charlie Brown's Thanksgiving. )
John took the big kids to the elementary school to play wall ball and pass a football around while the younger ones took a nap and I finished making rolls and a dessert.
We headed up to Ridgefield, WA to the Millers' house for thanksgiving dinner. A lot of the Kent clan came up for the holiday, so it was fun catching up with all John's cousins.
Dinner was great, family was enjoyable,  the games were a riot, and we had a good time.
John and i came home, put the kids to bed and started "While You Were Sleeping"....until I fell asleep, haha - long day!